Turkey Trot

Last weekend I ran/walked (mostly walked) my first ever 5k. If you don't know me, you should first know I'm not what one would refer to as athletic. I think I've probably never walked as much as I did Saturday then I had ever before in my life at one time period.

So with all that in mind, it also rained the whole time this was going on. It started slightly before we got outside and ended slightly after we finished. So yeah that's just great. Couldn't imagine anything better.

I would think whoever planned this would've thought of the weather a bit better but whatever. That was fine.

Afterwards, was the worst time of my life. It's Tuesday, 3 days after it happened and I'm still so sore. My legs hurt, my back hurts, my chest hurts. It doesn't help that Sunday the day after I also helped my dad move a tree.

Even though the run was hard I still enjoyed it. I may not be athletic but it's more from lack of motivation not from not wanting to. With social anxiety it makes it really hard to work out and run since, I don't want to do it alone because that's scary. When I'm alone it feels like everyone is staring and judging. I want a friend to go with me. But at the same time I'm really nervous to go with anyone because I feel like since I'm not in as good of shape as them, they'll silently be judging and making fun of me in their head, and later to everyone else.
But if I had the chance I would definitely run again, and getting out and running in public like that did help me get over that fear a little bit. I still wouldn't be willing to do something like that alone, but I'm less scared of the idea of doing it with someone.

I also wanna give a big thank you to the teacher who planned all this. Mrs. Fry. She was the one who told me about it and helped me get in. Not only that but she also stayed by my side and ran with me the whole time even though she didn't have to. (She may be a teacher but she's definitely in better shape than me.) I was really grateful to not have to be by myself like I was most worried about.